-Sigh-

Dear Jan,

I would like to inquire as to what you were thinking this Sunday when you tracked my down in church just to 'hug' me? Does it not register in your damaged head that I DON'T want to see you? You've caused my family so much greif and pain its not even funny! I've had it with you and your lies! You get mad beacuse mom and dad won't talk to you, so you put me in the middle. I HATE that! I don't want you near me at all!!! So please don't track me down looking for sympathy because I have none. I remember everything you've done to me....and my family. I hate you for what you've done to my parents let alone my grandparents. You've aged us all 10 years....

I think back to last year when you moved down here.....I remeber being so excited because you were comming home...I look back at that and think if I had only known....There are some days when I wished you'd just leave...But no, out family is not granted that mercy. To be honest actually, I 'm terrified of you. I have been for a while. Since the time you almost killed me to the time you tried to break into my room I've been scared. When I got to church Sunday I freaked caue you were there. So my first reaction when I got upstairs and realized I was alone to text Sarah. She was running late sadly.. then you showed up..Oh and how dare you ask me whats wonrg? Are you frigging kidding me?

Honestly I'm too mad to spend anymore time on this. Theres a puzzle in front of me I'd like to finish. And I'd also like to listen to some muxic and try not to think about you and where you are and how you are...So in closing....Stay away from me....Please....


Nicole