Monday, September 22, 2008

Some Q &A

These are some questions asked to me about 8 years ago. The answers that I Have now are pretty much the same as they were 8 years ago. These are questions and some statements that you just shouldn't ask. You may think your being polite and helping a person but really your not. Heres just a few of my 'favorites'.

  • Are you over 'it' yet? NO! Il'' never be over what happened. I'm just as sad now as I was 8 years ago. This isn't something that just goes away.
  • At least he's in a better place. What are you talking about!? He's not HERE with ME and my family where he belongs!
  • At least he's not suffering anymore. What?! Why was he suffering? Even if he was I can't really think of a good reason why he had to suffer at ALL.
  • I know how you feel. This one gets me everytime. YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE UNLESS YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH IT YOURSELF. Don't set there and make up things just to make me feel better. You look ridiculous if you can't think of anything better to say. Sometimes it's best to just offer a hug instead of words.
  • Get on with your life. What?!?! Just because I have to continue my life and go forward doesn't mean that I always want to and that it never hurts on the inside. When you get to major milestones in life he never had, he gets in the back of your mind A LOT.
  • Do you feel better? No I still miss him more than life in itself. These emotions don't just clear up over time. They'll always be there.
  • God never makes a mistake. You really mean to tell me he took him away on purpse?!?!?! God just playing a game like that is just cruel and hurtful. You really mean he gave him life with us only for a while to be ripped away at a young age? Go stuff it!
  • At least you had him for so many years. This one just really digs in there. I'm sorry could you repeat that? Oh.... Well what time would you have selected for your brother to die? Never? Thats the same answer I have.
  • God nevers gives you more than you can bear at once. Well then apparently I'm just an emotional dumping ground. There are days when I just don't feel like handling what gets dumped on me. Besides who can decide how much I can take? Aren't I the only one who can anwer that question?

1 comment:

The Bear said...

I know my comment's a little late, but I felt the need to post something. I know this time of year is always hard for you. Even though I haven't known you as long, I can see how much you're hurting. After reading this, I got into a deep state of thinking. Honestly, I can say I don't know how you feel. I've never been as close to anyone in my family as you were to him. I know a loss like that has to leave a pretty big hole in your heart. And it absolutely kills me to see how it's damaged your relationship with God.
You and Allison are like sisters to me. You guys set me straight when I'm acting too retarded, cheer me up when I'm down, and kick Fruity in the shins when he's getting on my nerves. I don't know what I would ever do if I lost you guys, I'd be so confused and I would feel alone.
I want to let you know that if you ever need anything, wether it just be a hug or you need me to bail you out of trouble, I'll do it at any cost. I'm praying for you, too. =)